I don’t even care to be thin anymore. I just want to be healthy. I’m so tired of feeling as if I don’t belong in this body and as I draw near 30 I realize more and more just how much damage I have already done.

It’s not as easy as changing up my eating habits and exercising. It’s mentally stressful for me to live day to day the way that I have. I know that my issues run deeper than simply being fat. I’m making an appointment with my PCP to get a referral to see a specialist. My attempt (#345,125,643) this time around is to get to the root of my issues. I intend to get a full health screening and some guidance on getting to and maintaining a healthy lifestyle. I don’t want to weigh myself or count calories I just want to get the progress started and go from there. Wish me luck…again